Xo Novel
Chapter 38 (Zero)
Chapter 38 (Zero)
“Now no woman can ride on your man's back, we good.” Beggar knocks me a new fucking one when
she smiles at Quinn, her words chilled, there is no fucking malice.
Quinn smiles back and I watch them exchange a hug.
Beggar gives me her back, and begins to leave and I feel an instant loss. She turns her head and my
mouth opens as her hair swings to the side when she does it. She looks right at me, and it is like she
knows so much, it is like she is looking in my soul, understanding why I did what I did and telling me
she is okay with it.
“I told you Zero, hope.” She disappears in the small crowd of our men and women. Her words,
reminding me of a month ago, when I had her, when she wasn't my brother's killer, she wasn't just a
woman, she was my hope.
My feet move to go find her, but a hand claps hard on my shoulder and I turn to see Bull, who gives me
a slight shake of his head.
He knows what I want to do, and I know the timing sucks but I just want to talk to her.
“Enough chit chat, alright people we still have a woman to find,” River informs the entire room.
Quinn takes a seat with Chadley and Jade in the corner as Harlow is brought down from upstairs.
It takes me a few good minutes to get my eyes off her, she looks a fuckuva lot different in a tight jeans
that does fit her.
The glasses on her face now a deep purple thick framed rectangle bring out her big round eyes.
“Right, now we are going to be working with Thorn on this case,” River says and my eyes go to my
brother who is still seated on the sofa across from me, only now he is smiling.Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.
“Stacy Fern was found dead, they found her body in the back of a scrap car, in the Vikings Scrap Yard.
Fingernails off, strangled but this time her tongue was removed with scissors.” River carries on and I
look to Harlow who is cringing, standing just behind River's imposing form.
“We believe she's gone, Harlow has informed us that Harley will need more drugs and naturally go to
one of the facilities. I'm going to pick two of you from Kanla to meet with a few of the brothers and Rest,
she's a soldier from the Ohio chapter, the five of you would need to find Harley to bring her back. We
not going to kill her unless we have to. Harlow said there is a cure.”
“And she's her sister,” Knight points out sitting on the dining room chair next to Spade and Venus.
“Right,” River says, “was going to get Bull and Zero to go, but we'll have to see who is going to be the
third, any volunteers?”
“Me, I'll go.”
Beggar's voice comes from behind me and I don't pause to turn my head to face her, she's leaving.
As much as I want to hold her back, I don't. So I turn my head around and face River.
“Seriously? Remember what I said?” River seems to be having a public but private conversation with
Beggar.
“We can stop and see Kylie,” Killer suggests and my gut clenches as I turn to Beggar and see Killer's
arm around her shoulders.
She is not mine any longer.
Killer and Beggar on a fucking road trip.
What the fuck do I say to that.
The meeting ends, and it is settled. Killer, Bull and Beggar are leaving tomorrow. She is really leaving.
Quinn takes herself shortly back to work and everybody else goes about their business.
Thorn didn't say too much to me before he went up to his room for the night, besides a congratulations.
It doesn't look like he likes Quinn too much, but fuck he'll come around, always does.
I take a stroll to the water, over the hill. The night sky is always fucking glowing, sometimes it is
haunting in beauty, and others it is sparkling with life as the stars flicker.
I don't need to know who it is that sits with their knees to their chest, staring out the water.
Her hair is a giveaway and even if it wasn't I would still know.
“You just got back,” my words are accusing, even I can't deny that.
She is so quiet and I think she won't answer.
“Killer wanted to go, he needs to be on the road. He won't leave without me, I see no reason to stay.”
“So you and Killer, I gathered as much.”
“Not every relationship has to be about sex, sometimes it's more than that, can't put a claiming on it,”
her gruff voice is a lot to take in as I bend down and sit next to her.
“So you go, and come back then what then? Are you going to finish what you started with my brother?
Are you even coming back?”
I stare at her dark silhouette thinking to myself - how many nights have I wished to see her here, and
now here she is sitting right next to me but we are miles apart.
She touches her covered neck, playing with the material.
“I have waited so long to finish what I started years ago, I can wait a bit longer.”
She isn't giving up on it, but she is also telling me she will give it time. Nor is she putting a limit which is
good for now but is she telling me she'll be back or not.
“Why do you wear those tops now, what do you have to hide.” She gets up once I ask the question and
I know it is something, I am not going to like.
“What I have to hide is my secrets to keep, mine to share and I don't want to share it with you,” She
starts walking away and I rush after her.
“You keep running away from me, you always running, when are you going to stop and fight for what
you want.”
She pauses and turns to me but remains the small distance apart.
“I have been fighting for years for what I want Zero. I have been running for years so I can live to fight
another day. You don't know me, all you know is your fake promises. You once said you would catch
me if I fall, yet you don't see, there was nothing left to catch. I fell a long time ago, there was nobody
there when I was falling, and it was a hard fall, most of me was left on the ground. I gave all the rest
away until I had just a small piece left, and that I didn't give away Zero, that was taken from me, from
you.”
I walk to her, closing the distance and I grab her hands but she pushes me back, and I am a weak man
because I stumble, pleading, “So fight with me, hit me, but don't leave, be angry with me, hate me fuck
Baby.”
“How do I hate you Zero, when you are the best part of my story? I can't fault you for moving on, what
you have with Quinn is good, you and I were never meant to be more than a passing by. I'm not gone
forever, I'll be back, but just not now, I think you and Quinn need time. You need time, and I need to
catch that girl, and see Kylie.”
“I'll come with you, you, me and the road, we can figure it out, Quinn will understand.”
“I don't want you to Zero. That day you left me in barn I was angry at you, but it was just me not letting
go of you, and now I am letting you go, and this is the way, running, so I can live to fight another day.
This, now is you and Quinn's story. Beggar's story was just that, a story of a beggar who once met a
biker, she was just a passer by.”
“I don't believe that, you were always Beauty, mine.”
Her eyes stare with so much power in them that even in the dark, as I beg like a lesser man, I am
entranced.
“If I had only met you sooner Logan.”
“ZERO, ZERO.” Quinn’s voice can be heard from the distance, calling me and here I am staring at the
only woman who I will ever love, letting me go.
“Go get your woman Zero.”
Beggar walks away from me, and I stand there even after I can't see her any longer. And I am a lesser
man because I do drop to my knees as I get my existence ripped out of me.
What the fuck have I done. Go get your woman Zero. It is on this night, under a starlit sky, that I am a
man brought to my knees by the woman who called herself Beggar.
“Zero, I've been looking for you, why are you on the floor, your dad is coming over, he just called, said
to tell you to...” Quinn continues on talking and I just stare at the ground, my heart just got ripped to
shreds.
I got rejected by the woman I love again. If I had only met you sooner.