Chapter 38
It had been a week since she escaped from the mansion, I was feeling reckless knowing that she left because of me, because of my behaviour. I had been blaming myself and I don’t know what else to do.
She’s out there, running away from me like always.
I want to see her and know if she’s okay or not?
From the moment Pen told me that she escaped from the mansion, I felt some kind of fear inside. All my life, whoever I had been close with has left me and I was left alone. My mother, I loved her and wanted to be with her but I couldn’t. She left me with a selfish monster, who didn’t even care about me.
Lorenzo left me after the death of Romulus and Millina, thinking that I was part of their death but in truth, I wasn’t. He hated me for years. Only after Vanessa came into our life, he began speaking to me.
I couldn’t lose him again, I fell in love with his wife and wanted to be with her but she left me for him.
All those years, I felt lonely.
After Julianna left, I felt it again and I’m scared. I don’t know why but I can’t forget about her. No matter how many times I try to stop thinking about her, her face and her voice keep rushing back to me.
I just can’t do this, I want her, I want her to be with me, I want to touch her, kiss her, hold her. I was wrong about her, it’s all my mistake, I made her feel like trash with my behaviour and she made up her mind to leave.
If I just stayed the way I was with her before, she would’ve not left me like this.
Fuck, I need her here.Text © by N0ve/lDrama.Org.
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“Boss?” I hear Cole’s voice.
“Yes,” I replied and he came inside a file in his hand.
“Here are the details of the man who donated his heart to you,” he said, handing the file over to me.
I took it from him and opened the file, it had his details along with a photo attached to it. His name was Greyson Williams, and he died because of a car accident. He’s an average looking guy, with brown hair and black eyes, with boyish looks. There were other details about his parents and about him.
I glanced at Cole, “About his background check?” I asked,
“Yes boss, we found out that Greyson Williams has a younger sister named Millian Williams, she lives in Sunnyvale, a small city near San Jose, in her family house… she informed us about him,” Cole said,
“What did she say about her brother,” I asked curiously,
“Millian said her brother’s shy guy, someone struggling to voice their thoughts and kept things in his heart… he back then, had loved his best friend but couldn’t express his feelings for her. Here we got his journal, the sister didn’t allow us to have this but he had to convince her,” he said while giving his journal to me,
“Okay,” I took it.
“She said he writes everything in there, including things he couldn’t say or express,” Cole added, “maybe there’s something there to answer your questions boss,”
“I hope so,” I muttered while opening the books.
It looked old but was untouched, “what do you have here, Julian?”
Today, dad brought clothes for me and I feel very grateful for them,
I skipped the boring daily routes of his and came to the juicy part.
Today, a new student joined our class. She’s so beautiful and everyone looked at her like they looked at a new sweet candy and surprisingly she sat beside me.
Okay, a new girl in his class. My curiosity got hold of me and I flipped pages to know whether he became friends with her.
I couldn’t understand what was happening to me, the sparks I felt when she touched my hand were electrifying. I feel them running all over my body, no one ever touched me or even looked at me. The girl sat with me from the first day she came to our school and I still remember how she saved me from falling to the ground.
She’s so kind and beautiful, and she’s not like the other girls in my class. She’s not rude like Jenny and Clara in my class, she never insulted me like them.
I feel lucky to have her as my friend.
Okay, looks like he’s a nerd or something and why didn’t he mention her name? I thought while flipping the papers.
My heartbeat rapidly as I feel her so close to me, she didn’t know the effect her closeness has on me. She sits too close! She shares her food with me and has mine too and it’s so damn nice to feel her close to me.
She even explains things I don’t understand in classes.
She keeps laughing at those stupid things coming out of my mouth all the time.
Like an idiot, I said, “You are sitting too close to me,”
She chuckled at me and said okay and moved a bit away from me. I felt stupid and began cursing myself for saying that.
Looks like he’s falling in love with the girl, I thought and continued to read.
Today is my birthday, everyone gave me my favorite things but it didn’t make me feel happy but when she gifted me with the latest book from my favorite author It made me so happy that I hugged her tight.
She took me out along with her friends and my sister, we had fun and I got to be close to her. Her intoxicating smell made me want to have her close to me but I couldn’t. We went to a movie and I got to sit with her. The whole time, I just kept looking at her rather than watching the movie.
His beautiful smile and her cute laugh were something worth watching.
She must have made him feel quite special.
Today was the best day of my life, it was raining outside and yet she waited for me to finish my final class so that we could go home together. As we ran towards our homes, laughing at our silliness, I took the opportunity and grabbed her hand and stopped her.
I said to her, I love her.
It was so dreamy, I proposed to her, standing in the rain, like in the movies. When I said, I love you, she had a shocked and surprised look but it was replaced with a small smile on her lips. I knew she was going to tell me, I love you too but before she could say that her father called her inside.
And she said she would talk to me tomorrow before going inside.
God, I can’t believe this, I said I love her!!!
I can’t wait to hear her say, I love you too, tomorrow.
If she says that, I would scream at the world as loud as I can.
I LOVE YOU JULIANA.
I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH, JULIANNA MITCHELL!!!!
YOU RULE MY HEART!!
Wait a damn second!
“What???” I whispered in shock.
I flipped the page and there he wrote.
MY LOVE, JULIANNA MITCHELL.
And he attached a photo of him and Juliana Mitchell, My Julianna, in which Julia offered a piece of cake to him and he had a birthday cup on his head. It was a picture of the cake cutting on his birthday.
“Holy shit,” I muttered in utter shock,
I flipped the page to see more but there was nothing. The pages were blank.
What happened the next day?
Did she say yes to him?
I glanced at his file, there my eyes caught the date of his death and my eyes widened.
He died the next morning in a car accident.
“Greyson loved Julianna Mitchell, she ruled his heart,”