Xo Novel
20
Nikolai’s Pov:-
Good God!
She’s breathtaking.
I never had this amazing sex with anyone ever. Whenever I look at her, my heart slammed against my chest in a strange way and I really don’t understand what’s happening with me anymore. As I held her in my arms, her eyes stared at me with lust and desire and it made my heart beat faster again.
Her eyes screamed for more and I could feel myself turning on by just looking at her lips and those beautiful eyes. I had been waiting for this to happen from the day I tasted her lips. Every single time I saw her, every single nerve in my body wanted to slam her against the wall and kiss her hard.
The craving to taste her lips was so strong that I never felt it before. No matter what I do, I couldn’t stop myself from watching her, the way she talks and walks made my eyes fix on her. Every small action she does is turning me on.
I was working earlier before I heard the sounds of someone in the kitchen and I found her, I couldn’t control myself as her soft and small body fell on me. I couldn’t stop my raging hormones as I saw her lips and her beautiful face in the dim light.
I had to taste her.
“You’re beautiful, Miss. Mitchell,” I whispered while pulling her closer, “So damn beautiful,” Her body shivered as I placed my lips on her neck and whispered against her skin. I’m loving the way her body’s reacting to my touch and it makes me want to do some sinful things to her body and enjoy those erotic reactions.
Jesus!
I claimed her soft lips and kissed her sweetly, she responded right away, melting in my arms. I don’t understand this feeling, but I like the way she’s fitting in my arms as if she was meant to be. My heart was humming in my chest and I could feel a slight pain, it was bearable, but I don’t understand why I feel ache whenever I’m near her.
I always feel like this rush through my bones and it never happened to me before. Her soft skin, her smell and fuck! Those beautiful eyes make my heart slam against my ribcage. I had met a fair share of beautiful women and had spent nights with them, but this never happened to me before.
Why with her! Why?
I wrapped my arms around her and pushed her closer to me while kissing her, claiming her sweet mouth. The way her boobs and her soft body was pressed to mine has increased the desire to have her again, but I know she just lost her virginity and having sex again will hurt her.
I tried to control myself and this strange feeling and ache inside me as much as I could, but as I felt myself losing into lust and end up fucking her again I quickly pushed her back. A small gasp left my lips, shock and confusion were evident on her face and it clenched my heart.
“Yo-you should sleep…” I said while getting up from the bed, I could feel her eyes on me, but I tried my best to not look at her. I don’t know whether I’m running from her or from myself. I slipped into the bathroom and stood under the shower.
I let the water drops fall on me while sighing deeply, my hand moved to my chest and I could feel my heart pounding inside my chest.
“Miss. Mitchell,” I breathed out.
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Julianna’s Pov:-Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
I stared at him as he walked into the bathroom butt naked. Looking at his firm butt, I gulped hard, but as soon as he slipped into the bathroom the way he pushed me away all of a sudden rushed to my mind.
I pushed my hair back and sat up. I felt hurt and disappointed and I don’t know why, but I didn’t like the way he pushed me away. I felt angry and I couldn’t sit there and look at him again. I quickly tried to get up, but the ache between my legs made me gasp.
“Fuck!” I gasped and slowed down from the bed, as I grabbed my clothes and began wearing them, from the corner of my eyes and I noticed the blood on the bedsheets and embarrassment washed over me.
After wearing my clothes, I changed the bed sheet and set the bed before walking towards the door. I could hear the shower running in the bathroom as I pulled the door open and stepped outside, I couldn’t stop myself from turning back and glancing at the closed door of the bathroom before closing the door.
I strolled towards my room and I don’t know why my eyes are filled with tears. I don’t understand why I feel hurt but I let tears roll down my cheeks. I pushed the door open and strolled straight towards my bed.
I climbed onto my bed and tears began to stream down my eyes. I don’t know why am I crying? Why do I feel so hurt? Is it because of having sex with someone who kidnapped me or because he pushed me away?
Am I crying because I lost my virginity to a murder? A mafia don? Why the hell am I crying?
The way he pushed me away and was taking a shower inside his bathroom rushed to mind and tons of questions were raised to mind. Was he so disgusted by me that he showered right after having sex with me? Perhaps he didn’t want my smell on his body.
Did he not like it? Am I so bad?
God!
Why am I thinking all these? Why do I care? Why do I feel so bad? Why? Possibly only I wanted him, maybe he didn’t and maybe he didn’t like it and thought to clean himself. I shouldn’t have had sex with him in the first place, how could I lose my virginity to a mafia don.
I always saved myself for the right person and despite knowing who he is, how did I end up having sex with him.
I know he might have had sex with plenty of beautiful women and maybe I was so bad that he took shower right away. I felt tears rolling down from the sides of my eyes and I couldn’t stop myself from crying. My whole life I had been reminded by my parents that I’m a good-for-nothing child and I’m bad at everything I do, perhaps they are right.
Maybe I am.