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Lucas stayed out until the last rounds of guests that were going back to their respective homes left, the ones that were spending the night at the hotel were still around and some were already in their rooms, the whole event had been smooth and it ended about an hour ago, Lucas turned to the staff nearest to him and gave him instructions before heading towards the room he had chosen for him and Katrina, he saw her going that way earlier and it had made him glad, at least she still wanted them to talk, she hadn’t believed his declaration of love which had hurt but he couldn’t blame her, he did worst to her, he just hoped she would forgive him and give him another chance.

His parents and siblings already turned in for the night, they hadn’t asked him any questions, but he knew they were curious, he hoped he will have good news to share with them by morning.

When he entered the room, he found her sleeping, she still had her clothes and makeup on so he assumed she fell asleep while waiting for him, she looked uncomfortable the way she slept, he didn’t want to wake her but he needed to help her sleep right or she might feel numbness when she wakes up, going over to where she laid half on the bed, her foot still on the ground, he helped her into the bed properly, he noticed a great change in her appearance, he had noticed earlier when they had come here to talk, she added some weight and looked prettier, she had this glow that the makeup she wore couldn’t give.

She must have been doing well without him, maybe he should take her word for it and just leave her alone, he had a chance to be with her, a shining opportunity to be happy, to be loved and he had stupidly let her go, all because of a past mistake, all because one other woman cheated on him and made a fool out of him, he couldn’t believe he took it out on Katrina, Katrina will never be like Loren, he called her selfish but he was the selfish one, the foolish one, but still he wanted her to give him a chance, now that he has come to his senses he couldn’t imagine a life without her in it, he couldn’t imagine her fallen for someone else, he had to get her back.

He watched her sleep, she rolled over, laying on her back, her stomach bulging out, it looked swollen, maybe she had a little too much to eat, but then she hadn’t eaten much because he had been watching her, she sat with his family so he knew, she had toyed with her plate barely eating anything, so why was her tummy looking big unless, no way, she couldn’t be, or could she be pregnant? With his child?

“Oh my God,”

He whispered as he thought about the possibility of that happening, what if she was really pregnant, it looked so to him, he hoped it was true, that he wasn’t just dreaming it up, if she was pregnant with his child, then he might just have a chance of proving to her that she was meant for him, he never wished so bad for something the way he wished his thoughts were true right now.

He gently placed his hand over her tummy, held his breath as he waited for the movement that he knew he would feel if she was pregnant, he send a silent prayer to heaven hoping for it to be true, but after feeling her stomach for a couple of minutes without getting any response, the disappointment settled in, she wasn’t pregnant, like he hoped, he made to remove his hand from her stomach and then it happened, that little move, it changed his world, his eyes watered, he felt the movement again and his heart leaped with joy, she was carrying his child, he couldn’t have been happier, this day just got even better, he was going to be a dad, he was sure of the fact that the baby was his, he didn’t need a prophet to tell him that, he knew his woman so well and now he would do everything to make her love him again, to make her be his forever.

“I am going to fight for the both of you little one,”

He whispered, the baby seemed to agree as it moved again, this time it was more clear, he wiped the stray tears that dropped off, she didn’t look like she would wake up anytime soon, he decided to wipe off her makeup, he got a few wipes from the cabinet in the room and gently wiped off her makeup, Kat was a heavy sleeper and he remembered when she said she sleeps when she knows she is safe and having her peacefully sleeping right now gave him so much joy and hope that things will work out fine for them.

After cleaning off her makeup, he took off his own clothes leaving only his undies, he laid next to her, placed his hands on her tummy again, he couldn’t resist it.

“I love you,”

He whispered to both his world, he would not get tired of telling her, of telling them and he was going to make sure to keep telling them every day for the rest of his life as long as Katrina lets him…

****

“Oh my God, I slept off,”

Was what woke him up the next morning, he had fallen asleep while watching and waiting for her to wake up.

“Good morning princess,”

He said, rubbing his eyes to clear off sleep, she got off the bed.

“Why didn’t you wake me up? I waited for you to come in and must have fallen asleep, you should have woken me up,”

She scolded.

“I didn’t want to wake you, you looked so tired, plus you know it quite hard to wake you up, you didn’t even know when I removed your make up,”

He said pointing at her face.

“You should have woken me up Mr.”

“I am sorry, next time I will,”

“There is no next time, after today we won’t be seeing each other again,”

“Kat,”

“No, Lucas, I don’t accept your love, I don’t care about you anymore, you don’t deserve a second chance,”

She let out, he felt sick, her words hurt, was this how she felt when he had told her he didn’t care about her? It was so painful and he felt worst knowing just how much pain he had caused her.

“Kat, go take a bath, and I will do the same then we can talk,”

He said getting off the bed, his eyes went to her stomach, he wanted to ask her but he needed to get her to give him a second chance first, no way was he going to use the baby, he trusted Katrina enough to know that she wouldn’t keep his kid away from him, he understood why she hadn’t told him, she was hurt by him.

“I don’t want to, I will do that when I get home,”

“Baby, you know y***”

“Don’t fucking baby me, I hate you, Lucas,”

She yelled cutting him off.

“No, you love me, and you know what? I love you too,”

He said walking up to where she stood.

“You are wrong Lucas, I don’t love you anymore,”

“Okay, let’s say that’s true, let’s say you don’t, but I do, I love you, Katrina, you loved me once, you can love me again, I can’t let you go, Katrina, I can’t,”

“But you did, three months ago, you let me go, you didn’t bother to check up on me, so why now?”

“I was a fool, but I did, I did but I couldn’t find you at your house and your number wasn’t going through, Jordan wouldn’t tell me anything even when I asked nicely,”

“You did?”

“Yes, baby,”

“Why?”

She asked, he looked at her and knew his answer will go a long way, he chose his next words with care.

“I don’t know, at that time I didn’t know, I just felt that I should see you, maybe because I missed you maybe because my heart already realized it loved you, it took a while for my brain to get the memo, I can’t lie and say I knew, I saw you last night and it all finally clicked, maybe if I had met you when I went to see you, maybe it might have clicked, I don’t know I am stupid and naive when it comes to love, I just don’t know how to act which is why I messed it up, but I can fix it, just give me a chance to, please Katrina,”

He said going on his knees in front of her, totally doing away with his pride, he didn’t need that when his happiness was more important.

“You are such an emotional blackmailer,”

She whispered.

“I can’t let you fool me with words, I can’t, I have to think of myself, not just myself, I have to think of my b**”

He held his breath and waited for her to finish it but she didn’t, he knew what she was about to say before she stopped talking.

“I am not asking for you to forgive me immediately, I am not asking for you to take me back just like that but please, just give me a chance to show you that I mean every word, I promise, I will show you that I am in love with you,”

He pleaded.

“Can you get up, you are making me feel bad,”

She said, she looked like she was going to cry, he got off and held her hands.

“Please don’t cry, I don’t want you to cry,”

“Are you for real? Do you know how much tears I have shed for you? This is nothing compared to the number of tears that I have shed.”

She replied.

“I am sorry I made you cry, I promise I won’t let that happen again if you give me another chance,”

“That’s a lie Lucas, you are going to make me cry again, and I am the fool here because I am giving you that power again,”

She replied hitting him on the chest, his heart leaped at her words.

“Does this mean, you are going to give me a chance?”

“Yes moron, how can I say no when you are being so real? Have I ever been able to say no to you?”

“Oh my God Katrina,”

He said hugging her, feeling his world become whole again.

“I am a fool,”

She whispered.

“No, you are not, I am going to show you that you are not,”

“Good luck with that,”

She said, he hugged her closer, feeling their baby between them, his world, his family, he wasn’t going to let go, he was going to spend the rest of his life showing them just how much she loved them, just how much he loves her.

“I love you, Katrina,”

He whispered kissing her neck, he didn’t expect her to respond, it hurt when she didn’t but he understood, he would work hard to get those words from her.

“Oh, shit,”

She said pushing him off, he got scared that she might take back her words.

“What is it?”

“Huh, I…, Didn’t you feel anything? You know, like a… Huh..,”

She asked tripling on her words, he kind of had an idea what she was trying to say as she was holding her tummy, he smiled.

“What’s that? Katrina?”

He asked, she was avoiding his eyes.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

“Huh, I…, You know…,”

“Just say it,”

He persuaded.

“I…”

“You love me too?”

He teased, he knew that wasn’t what she wanted to say.

“No, dummy, I am pregnant,”

She let out and covered her mouth with her hands, he just smiled, happy to finally hear her say it confirming what he already knew…