I Rejected You, Alpha

ELEIA’S POV

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By the time Aiden arrived, the people that were gathered in front were gone and I was just relieved.

Felix and I went to meet him outside and the worry and fear in his eyes made me feel guilty and distracted me from how good he actually looks.

“What are you doing out here?” he glances around as he picks Felix up and grabs my bicep in a tight grip, pulling us towards the inside. I forget about the shooting pain in my arm as my eyes gaze up and down his suit. He’s wearing black, from his feet to his shoulders and I am turned on by the sight of him.

I glance at the castle and I abruptly stop in my tracks and rip my arm out of his bicep, “Relax, we’re not in danger Aiden.” I grab his hand and he turns to look at me with a confused expression. His eyes dart around us while I stare at him with wide eyes, “I took care of it.” I nod and he frowns, “What do you mean? Your uncle said we’re taking the crown today..” his eyebrows furrow together, frown lines appearing on his face, “I did it another way, I’m not ready.” I confess and he rolls his eyes at me, “I get that, but we could have done it Eleia.” He steps closer and I look at Felix, “Yes, we probably could but I was not ready, don’t you understand?” I c**k my head at him.

He inhales a deep breath, nodding, “Of course I do, I’m sorry…” his eyes widen and it just feels like an empty apology.

He wants this more than I do…

“We’ll get there.” I step closer to him and he sighs before snaking his arm around my shoulders, and pulling me to him, “Yes we will.” his voice is deep and he places a soft k**s on my temple.

We sit on a bench outside while Felix is playing on a swingset, his arm is draped around my shoulders and I take my time to feel the warmth of the sun on my skin, “So how did you do it?” He finally asks, “I talked to them, with the help of my uncle…” and he hums in response.

I sit forward, twisting my body slightly to him, “Are you mad at me?” I ask, staring at him with a worried expression. He looks at me, frowning, “Of course not, should I be?” the way he speaks is pissing me off. I know that he’s mad I didn’t take the opportunity, but I was not setting myself up for failure.

“No, you have no reason to be, so stop being mad at me.”, “I’m not.” he sneers and I scoff, standing up, “Yes you are, you are power hungry and I am not going to be your way in. If you keep on acting like this, I will tell my uncle that I will not be taking the throne , got it?” I seethe , watching his eyes widen and grow dark. He grabs my wrist, pulling me forward and I step in between his thighs, his other hand grabs the back of one of my legs and he sits forward, looking up at me with a dark hooded gaze, “If you think that all of this is because of our title, you are wrong and you don’t know me.” he grits out before shoving me back, sighing as his face falls into the palms of his hands.

I stand dumbfounded as I stare at him with a worried gaze…”Aiden..” I step forward but halt as he stands, staring down at me with a disappointed look.

“I love you Eleia and being away from you is driving me insane.” he grits out, “I can’t sleep, I can’t eat…I want to tear everything apart…I can’t do this for much longer because I need you, I need you by my side, in my arms, under me.” he inches closer, his voice growing darker with each gritted out word.

ELEIA’S POV

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By the time Aiden arrived, the people that were gathered in front were gone and I was just relieved.

“I need you.” my l*p curls into a pout at the sight of his glassed over eyes.

“I need you.” my l*p curls into a pout at the sight of his glassed over eyes.

“I need you too, but it will get better. It’s just a few more weeks and I can speed up the process, I’ll work harder.” I reach for his face, but he grabs my wrists, pulling my hands down as he pulls his face away, “You can’t, if you work too much, you can loose this baby.” his eyes flick down to my small bump.

“I’ll do it in bed, plenty of rest with only a busy mind.” I smile and his eyes fall shut as he shakes his head.

“I have to go home..” he sighs, he sounds so broken, looks so tired…

“Why don’t you stay the night?” I smile in hopes that he would say yes, just to spend time with us.

“I can’t, I have to go tell the people to stop packing.” the anger radiates off him. He was going to bring them all here…

“We can call Stefan and tell him.” I try harder to convince him to stay but he lets go of me and walks to the side, “No.” he growls lowly, “I am the alpha, I need to tell my people. You can’t just force responsibilities onto someone else because of feelings.” he snarls.

“It’s just for a night.” I frown, “I am the alpha!” he turns, yelling and I glance around, people are looking at us as if we are delusional and Felix stops swinging, staring at us.

“I know.” Is all I say as embarrassment creeps up my spine.

“Then stop trying to get me to stay, my first responsibility is my pack.” he breathes out while shaking his head.

Well that was a knife to the heart, f**k that, it was an electrocuted knife in the heart that is twisted repeatedly.

“Then leave.” I scoff before walking towards Felix and I pick him up off the swing , “And don’t bother to come visit because I am nothing.” tears swell in my eyes and I walk off.

I wait for him to call after me, to stop me and apologize, but it doesn’t happen. I glance over my shoulder and find him just sitting on the bench again, looking out to the woods.

He’ll come inside and apologize…I know he will.

“Are you hungry?” I ask Felix as I try and distract myself from the heavy feeling in my chest, “Yes!” he beams, throwing a punch in the air in excitement and I smile at how adorable he is before we head into the kitchen.

I ask the chef to prepare Felix a meal and I sit him down at the table right outside the kitchen, waiting until I hear the door.

I want to mind link him and ask where he is…I want to beg him to stay until he feels better…but Felix already ate and he has yet to walk through that door.

I manage to call Felix’s sitter and she takes him before I head outside and I freeze to see that Aiden isn’t sitting on the bench anymore.

I focus on his mind link, but I can’t feel him, which means….he left.

I sit on the steps in front of the castle, staring out into the woods as tears silently roll down my cheeks. It’s like I can’t feel my heart, yet I have the pain in my chest that let me know that it’s still intact.

How could he just leave without saying goodbye?

I walk back into the house after sitting out here for hours and go straight up to my room where Felix and the sitter are coloring.

“Would you mind taking Felix for dinner? I don’t feel well and I’m going to take a bath.” I force a small smile and she nods and smiles before leaving.

I stare out of the window, watching the sky grow completely dark before I head to the bathroom and light some candles while I run a bath.

I lay in the dimmed light room, watching the candles as I run my hand up and down my bump.

I don’t necessarily drink a lot, but of course, the one time I wish I could, I can’t because I’m pregnant.

I begin to shiver as the water turns cold and I decide to get out and I get dressed for bed when the door opens and Felix runs through, the sitter following suite as I sit on the bed, putting socks on my feet.

“I brought you dinner.” she smiles and even though I don’t have an appetite, the haunting of my miscarriage makes me take the plate and eat.

Hours after Felix has fallen asleep, I still lay awake, turning and staring at things with a hallow chest.

I want to sleep, but everytime I close my eyes, I just see the empty bench and I feel the betrayal of him leaving without saying goodbye again.

I wake up to Felix jumping onto my bed, making me giggle as he wraps his little arms around me and hugs me.

I smile as I sit up and I ruffle his hair, “We should do something fun today.” I try to be all smiley and happy, but it’s like my face doesn’t want to oblige.

“I want to go to school with friends!” he beams and I stare at him with wide eyes, where did he get this idea from?

“What?” my eyebrows furrow together, “I want friends mommy.” he gives me that little pout that makes it difficult to say no.

“We’ll have to ask uncle Romand and aunty Penelope.” I boop his nose before I get out of bed.

“Please…” he begs and I give in, “Fine.” I roll my eyes playfully and he attacks me with another tight hug.

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Having Felix attend a day care has been the best decision yet, these last few days I focused on studying everything I could, Penelope started teaching me about how to care for the castle and started with the kitchen and how I needed to read the list of foods and how many to get…it was all maths and my brain was slowly breaking with all the information, but I study it at night and I do ask her about it the next day again. We moved on to the staff and their payments that need approving every end of the month before it’s sent out and it’s all like a business.

Penelope and I are having lunch together and I stare at all the paperwork, “By the end of this, I’ll know how to run a business.” I joke and he giggles, “It is a business my dear. But don’t worry, we have help.” she smiles brightly.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

A month has flown by fast and Aiden and I have barely talked since he just left…