Healing The Ruthless Alpha

Chapter 22

*KADE*

I felt like a schoolboy seeing tits for the first time. The giddiness that made me want to smile like a goofball was all thanks to the woman in my bed. My mate. She was not asleep, that much I could tell, and I knew she may not sleep with me in the room but I hoped with time she would relax enough to rest.

“We have her now. You better not mess up this time and mark her fast,” Flint warned me. The mutt had refused to speak to me for a while, going silent in protest of Sihana being mated to Cahir, but now, he would not shut up.

“I won’t,” I promised myself and my wolf.

I had decided to make Sihana my Luna. Fuck, the thought made me want to howl to the moon. The goddess’ kiss was not hereditary but no one in my lineage had it. Her great-grandfather had it so our children or grandchildren may have it. She could bring the kiss of the goddess to my lineage and for that, I was ready to risk having omega pups with her.

My member hardened at the thought of breeding the petite omega in my bed. I was pretending to read some documents on my system at the desk on the left hand of my bed, but in reality, I was scrolling past pages and seeing nothing. Sneaking a glance at her, I caught her staring at the ceiling with a blank expression on her face.

That expression worried me. I had seen her sad, happy, tired, but I had never seen her with such a defeated expression. She seemed subdued, broken even, and it worried me that I could not get through to her in such a state. She recoiled from me every time I got close to her. I knew the reason she was still here in my room was because of the lack of motivation to do anything which I could see in her eyes.

“That bastard!” My wolf snarled.

Cahir Armani was one of the worst men on the planet. A cruel, murderous Alpha who did not care for anything or anyone as long as he got what he wanted. When we arranged the meeting to bargain with him not to mate with Sia, none of us expected him to bring her along. Remembering it made me clench my fists. Why would he hurt her like that? She was like this because of him!

“Sia,” I called her, getting out of my seat to join her on the bed. She curled into herself when I sat on the edge of the bed. “I’d like to talk to you,” I said in a civil tone despite the curling of hurt in my chest. Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.

“Why is it –“ She started in a raspy tone before taking a deep breath. “Why is it you won’t leave me alone?” She turned to me with her dead eyes and my heart twinged.

If I accepted her from the beginning, we would have a pup by now and she would have never had to deal with a man like Cahir Armani. I should have protected her from the start. I should have seen she was a diamond in the rough and nurtured her, not thrown her away like a dirty piece of rag. Nineteen-year-old me was stupid and that stupidity was something I would regret till the day I died.

“I want to apologize to you.” I brushed her hair from her forehead. Her skin was wet, her forehead damp with sweat but the room was chilly. Could a healer fall sick?

“Kade, no matter what you say to me, I will never forgive you.” I gasped as a sharp twinge of pain pierced my heart. Her words made my wolf whine and my skin too tight for me. “You think I am a foolish person but I’m not. Yes, your pack denied me a proper education, forcing me to work even during schooling hours, but I am not a fool,” she hissed. I would be happy to see her dead expression come to life if it wasn’t for anger replacing her soulless eyes.

“No one is calling you a fool,” I told her. “I’ve made some mistakes in the past –“

“Stepping on a bug is a mistake. Overfilling a glass is a mistake. What you and your pack have done to me for twenty-one years is not a mistake.” She sat up in bed, throwing the covers off her. For a second, I felt she was about to leave the room and I knew I could not let her do that. I could not let her leave me.

“Two days ago, you killed my best friend, you tried to assault me and you swore to never let me leave this pack. You swore to keep me as a slave for life but now you know I am a healer and you feel you have made a mistake?” She taunted me, her beautiful doe eyes looking at me as if I was the biggest piece of shit to ever exist.

To Sia, I may not be much but I vowed to myself that I would do anything to make sure she understood how much she meant to me. I could have lost her if my wolf did not know better. If Flint did not hold on to the mating bond while I severed it, I may have lost a person as precious as Sia.

“I was stupid and I –“ She did not let me finish before she screamed.

“Did your foolishness suddenly end when you found out I was a healer!? Do you think I would ever use my gift to help the wretched people in your pack who have hurt me time and time again?” She exclaimed, wheezing. “You just wasted your resources, Alpha Kade, because I would rather die than heal any member of this pack.”

“Sihana –“ She flinched away from my touch when I tried to caress her skin. My hand landed on her shoulder. “It may sound stupid to you but would you try to believe me if I said I love you?” Unable to help myself, my heart pounded in my throat, a hand squeezing my stomach.

“W – What?” Her eyes widened as she went stiff as a board.

“I am in love with you. I have loved you even before I learnt what it meant to love.” She did not move as I cupped her face and looked into her eyes. “It’s hard to believe but it’s the truth.”

“What kind of nonsense are you saying now!” She screamed in my face, pulling away from me with such force that she almost hit her head on the headboard. “You rejected me but now – Now you want to lie that you love me?”

“Have you ever wondered why you have never been asked out before?” I asked her rather than comment on her tantrum.

“It’s because I am ugly.” The way she said the words as if she believed them, as if they were nothing but the truth – it made me hurt knowing I was one of the people who made her feel this way, who made her believe she was unattractive and unworthy of love.

“Sia, have you ever looked into a mirror?” The way her eyes narrowed, I knew she did not find my question to her liking. “If you have ever looked into a mirror, you would see that you are easily the prettiest woman in this pack.” And it was not a lie.

Her heart-shaped face, doe eyes and full pouty red lips were enough to captivate any man. Coupled with her figure, her full and perky boobs, hard stomach and clinched waist, with full hips and that ass that no man could look once at, straight legs and sexy feet, she had a body that could drive the most steadfast man astray.

Sihana developed the curves girls paid money to have. Her curves were not so pronounced anymore as she lost weight but even with her slim figure, it was easily to admire her hourglass shape.

Most girls hated her due to envy – Heck, I heard more than one girl say a figure like hers was wasted on someone like her.

This girl, who would have men falling on their feet if her circumstances were different, thought that she was ugly?

“You’re beautiful, Sia, stunning even on your worst days. I have told you this plenty of times but your body –“

“Yes, my body is breedable,” she sneered at me and I felt my cheeks heat.

“Those were crude words but – Yes, you - they are –“

“Of course, I am nothing but an object to you that’s why you and C – Cahir can trade me –“ Her voice hitched and tears gathered in her eyes.

Did she cry after I rejected her? All I could remember from that day before I went to get drunk and had a fuck fest with women who could not compare to this woman was the relief that shone in her eyes after she accepted my rejection. Three years later and that look still made me want to snarl in anger.

“You know what I had to give up to be with you. If I thought of you as nothing more than an object to satisfy my desires, I would not have done that.” As the Alpha of my pack, I was far from foolish or lacking women to have sex with. What I wanted from Sihana was much more than that.

“I spent the better part of my life shielding you from men, making sure that no one else could have you. It was stupid of me to reject you considering – Considering I am always raging to have you, but I am thankful that mistake can be corrected.”

“Our mate bond is severed. We can’t mate anymore.” She reminded me.

No, our mate bond was not completely broken. It may prove tricky but since we still had a bond, no matter how small it was, we may still be able to mate. I just prayed that the love I had for her could strengthen our bond enough for us to be mated forever.

“No, our mate bond is not severed!” I scrubbed a palm down my face. “Flint never broke the connection from his end,” I admitted while chewing on my lips.