Be With Him

We all know what heartbreaks mean, but may I correct you, When we say Heartbreaks it doesn’t mean na puros tungkol sa lovelife ito ha?

Just like now, I can see through my Fathers eye’s that he’s having a heartbreaks from this family.

I pity him, he don’t deserve this kind of family, maybe having a mistress is a sin but for me having Zhackary-his mistress son-in our life will never be a sin.

Saktong pag kauwi ko kanina, nakita ko ang pagalis ni Mama na may bitbit na maleta, ni hindi man lang ako nakapag tanong or nakausap man lang siya, kahit gano siya kasama She’s still my mother.

Naka-upo ako ngayon sa sofa namin habang naka-tingin kay Papa na nasa harap ko

“Izha, do you even know what’s going on?” He smiled weakly to me.

Honestly, I don’t know. I’m Confused on what’s happening.

“Your Brother is being bullied in school cause someone made a story of him being ‘anak sa labas’ and your brother thinks that true coz that what’s your mother tell him….”He looked up fighting the argue not to cry but his tears betray him “Well haha, that’s true but that’s my mistake, why do he need to suffer?” My father cried.

That’s it! My weakness, seeing my family in pain.

I hugged him tightly and let him cry in my shoulder, sometimes the father needs us hindi sa lahat ng oras tayo ang nangangailan sa kanila.

As hour passed Dad decided to take a rest, nang umakyat na sa kwarto si Dad tsaka ko naman pinuntahan si Zhack.

He usually locked his door but not today because it’s open, I saw him laying while looking at the ceiling, nang tumabi ako sa kanya nakita ko ang cellphone niyang nakabukas kaya kinuha ko ‘to.

“Freak you! PERALTA!”

“Breaking news: Zhackary the great Peralta is anak sa pagkakamali haha!”

“What a shame on you, Peralta”

“Is that true? sayang naman captain ka pa naman ng Interstellar Academy”

Gossips by gossips.

Shame on them, ibaliktad mo man ang mundo tao pa rin siya.

And what? he’s not a Peralta? Oh c’mon may utak ba sila?!

“Zha–”

“Stop your pity on me, Ate” A pain is now visible on his eyes “Wag kang maawa, I’m Zha the great I can handle this shit” he gaved me an assuring smile.

Tears started rolling on my cheeks when he started hugging me, he’s the one who’s in pain but here he is trying his best to comfort me, he’s really pure.

“Ate, kaninong motor gamit mo?” He gaved me a sharp look after hugging me

“Sa crush ko!” Natatawa’ng biro ko pero lalo lamang sumama ang mukha niya

“Ano pangalan? Wait–” Tumakbo siya sa bintana at sinilip ang motor

Nanlalaki ang mga mata niyang umupo sa tabi ko.

“KAY ASUNSCION YAN ‘EH!” He hysterically shake me, what the fuck he knows Adam?!

“C’mon Sis, please….” He looked confused ” ‘Wag kang lumapit sa kanya..” tinitigan niya ako ” he’ll be the end of you”

I gave him a sharp look.

“Who are you to say that to him?” Tumayo ako “Do you know him?!”

“Why are you shouting? do you love him?” He asked, tumayo din siya at ni-lebel-an ang tingin ko “I know him more than you do”

Binigyan niya ako nang malungkot na tingin bago ako iniwan sa mismong kwarto niya.

Sino ka ‘ba talaga, Adam? Sino ka?

That was the first time that I defend someone against Zhack, Is he right? Do I love him?

Lord, Please help me, I’m confused.

Ginulo ko ang buhok ko at bumuntong-hininga, Jusko naman heart ba’t ka naman kase na-fall kay Adam, whoo!

Napag-desisyunan ko’ng gumala nalang muna gamit ang motor ni Adam kahit gabi na.

‘Di ko ‘man lang namalayan na napunta ako sa isang sikat na Park sa amin, marami’ng sunflower ang nagkalat, hindi ito pag-aari ng gobyerno dahil isa lamang ito’ng nasunog na lugar at tinaniman nang mga bulaklak ngunit mas kalat ang sunflower.

Naka-ilang buntong hininga na ako habang nakahiga dito sa bermuda grass

Grabe talaga ano? Ilang taon na akong may kasamang mga lalaki pero ngayon lang ako nalito nang ganto.

“Adam!!”

Mabilis akong napatayo nang marinig ang sigaw nang isang babae at nang hinanap ko ito nakita ko itong kasama ni Adam habang nagtatawanan.

They looked so happy, I smiled bitterly.

Kahit sino’ng makakita mapagkakamalan silang mag-jowa or mag-jowa talaga sila, I’m not sure.

Naka-akbay si Adam sa kanya habang may binubulong at may tinuturo sa kung saan tawa naman nang tawa yung babae, sana all.

While watching them I didn’t notice that my tears started to fell down, what a traitor.

U-uh nah he’s not a traitor coz in the first place we’re not in a relationship and what the hell Izha? ikaw lang naman may gusto—no, scratch that! I’m not dumb I know na this is not just ‘Like’ maybe Zhackary is right, I fell for him.

I wipe my tears and started texting him

To:Adam

Hey dude, I’ll bring your motorbike tommorow, iwan ko nalang sa parking then paabot ko yung key 🙂

After I hit the send button and look at him, I saw him looking at his phone but the girl started acting like having a tantrums it made Adam laugh, maybe he really love her, Awit sana all.

Tumayo na ako at naglakad palapit sa motor, nagsuot ako nang helmet at sasakay na sana nang mag ring ang phone koProperty of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.

Adam calling…

I sighed and answered my phone.

“Hello” I answered in monologue.

“Why don’t you bring it to me?” His voice was so deep.

“Tinatamad ako, Sorry” I knocked my own head, what the hell self?! Lame excuse!!

I wiped my tears and tried to stop myself from crying but heck I… I just can’t, I’m really fucking hurt.

“Don’t cry”nanlaki ang mga mata ko at unti unti’ng napalingon kung saan ko sila nakita.

I saw him looking intently at me, I ended the call at dali dali’ng nilisan ang lugar na ‘yon habang nakasakay sa motor na mismong pag-aari ng iniwasan ko.

Fuck this love.