Anamika- The broken beauty

Chapter 16- I Can't !

Authors pov

Anamika was sitting near the window in Massimo's big bedroom and thinking about what happened few

hours ago. How can he control her body like that. She has never lost her control like this, she was

always in control of her emotions and needs.

When he left, she cleaned and dressed up herself. She tried to open the door and window but it was

locked. When she started banging on the door continuously, Samuel opened the door...

"Do you need anything miss?"

He asked in his monotone voice.

"Yes... I need to leave... Move aside... Let me go...?"

She said looking at him.

His eyes widened at her demand.

Massimo ordered Samuel to guard her and give her anything she wants but if she leaves then he won't

be able to see the next day. 'One scratch on her and i will skin you alive...'

Were his exact words.

"I am sorry miss I can't let you go... I suggest you to please sit down and tell me if you want something

else I'll bring it to you..."

He said and shut the door on her face quickly.

Anamika huffed frustratingly, she knew she can't escape, only he can set her free.

So she sat near the window looking out and thinking about him...

"Why don't he understand, why is he behaving like this... He is right, I want him too, my body craves for

him but I can't, I can't love him, I can't trust him... I am scared... I don't want to break again... What if he

hurts me, I can't survive that again, it will destroy me... It's been seven years and still my past is

haunting me.

No matter how much I try to comfort myself that it's ok, you are free and it doesn't matter anymore, but

somewhere deep inside me I know it does and it's still hurting. I am still healing from the wounds my

own people carved on me and how will he react when he will find out how much broken and damaged I

am. I can't just open my heart for him and show him my dark past. I am not that strong, I can't, what

should I do. I don't understand anything and he is not ready to listen to me, he is so complicated..."

Nick opened the door and came in with food. He was worried that Massimo will loose his control and go

hard on her. Samuel informed him that she tried to leave so he came to check on her.

She was so deep in her thoughts that she didn't realise he was standing behind her.

She was looking out of the window, her long hair waving on her back with the wind. Her tattoos were on

display from her shorts and tank top. Her face looked like an angel and her blue eyes were glowing

under the sunlight...

'She is beautiful no wonder this fucker is crazy about her...'

Nick thought.

He cleared his throat to grab her attention. She turned around and looked at him. He placed a tray of

food in front her and said.

"Hii... I am Nicolas, Massimo's friend... I have brought you lunch, you must be hungry..."

He said carefully not wanting her to lash out on him because of his friend's stupidity. Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.

"Hello... I am Anamika and thank you for the food nicolas..."

She gave him an awkward smile and broke their eye contact by looking out of the window again.

He didn't expect that, he thought she will scream, curse, create a scene and demand him to let her go

like the rich and arrogant woman she is but it was completely different. She was not behaving like a

rich arrogant bitch instead she was thanking him politely for giving her food.

He looked at her face carefully and she looked depressed, something was bothering her as he noticed

the sadness in her eyes. She looked so vulnerable...

'maybe it's her real face under the facade of strong and brave woman...'

he thought.

"Anamika are you ok... Did he hurt you..?"

He asked gently.

She looked at him and shook her head negatively.

"No, no... he didn't.. I am fine.. thank you.."

He nodded in relief.

"Anamika I know it's not easy for you. Sometimes dealing with Massimo becomes a headache. I don't

know why you rejected him and I don't have the right to ask that either but give him one chance atleast,

try to know him. You won't regret it. He loves you Anamika I can see that in his eyes.."

He gently told her

"It's not love nicolas, he kidnapped me and locked me in this room. It's not love, it's obsession... It was

just one night, he can't fall in love with me like this... He doesn't know me, he knows nothing about

me..."

She said in her strong voice.

'Kidnapping and locking you is nothing for him. He can do worse than that. Thankfully you don't know

that he is a mafia king Anamika. He was right, it would have made things more difficult...'

He thought to himself.

"I know, I know and I can see that why he is so obsessed with you. You are different, strong, beautiful,

smart, mature unlike other women he has been with... He admires you Anamika, he is looking for

his happiness in you, you are his light in this dark world. He will never hurt you physically, I can assure

you that. He is not the monster you think he is..."

He tried to convince her.

"I know he is not a monster, I have faced and dealt with people worst than him but I can't do this

nicolas... I can't love and trust people... I can't love him like he deserves to be. I can't give him the

comfort he is looking for. How can I give him light when I am sitting in my own dark world... He needs a

girl who will bring happiness to him unlike me who doesn't even know how to smile..."

She said brokenly.

After listening her Nick realised that she is actually broken inside, she was perfectly hiding it under her

brave and strong facade. She is just like them, even if they are mafia, they are broken inside too...

Afterall they are humans too, they have feelings too...

"We all have darkness somewhere in our life Anamika, it doesn't mean we can't comfort each other.

You can love him by sitting in your dark world too, atleast give it a try. I am not saying it will be easy but

it's not difficult either and don't worry about giving him anything he will take it from you, with or without

your consent. Only difference is, it will be easy for you if you give in...

You can't win against him Anamika. He is a very stubborn man. He gets what he wants and he will turn

the whole world upside down to get you... I know him... you can't run away from him, he will find you

and cage you forever..."

he tried to convince her.

"But why... what does he want from me, I am not special. He can get any woman he wants, I am sure

woman must have thrown themselves at him, then why me..."

She asked confused.

"I don't know that either but I know one thing, he wants you and only you... He was looking for you from

the last 6 months like a madman. He hired the best spies to track you but they couldn't find you

because we didn't knew your real name but now he knows everything about you. He has you and he

won't let you go now"

He said making her realise the severity of the situation.

And her eyes widened...

'looking for me from the last 6 months...Shit'

"I know you are smart enough to make right decisions... Think about it, don't make it hard for yourself...

Eat your food, you must be hungry... See you later"

He said gently and left the room.

Her apetite was long gone. Massimo was serious about her, he was not playing, he was looking for her

from the beginning and she can't run now. She has played this game before and she can't win. She'll

only loose, she knows it very well and understood that she is trapped now.

She needs to handle this situation carefully, she can't provoke Massimo, Nick was right he'll cage her

forever if he wants to...

And she decided to do that, she was going to solve this matter rationally.

"Showing him attitude and anger won't work, it will only make the matter more worst."

She mumbled and decided to talk with him when he comes back...