A Girl in My Life

– Come on, Anael!

I hear Zaniel’s voice calling me for the third time. I’ve been lying on my cot since I came back from the human world with the information that I’m going to be a guardian angel, I’ve been ignoring everyone since then, I just wanted to be part of the fighting guardian angels, so I wouldn’t have to watch the terrible world of men, but you made me become a guardian human being, who is innocent now, but when he grows up he’ll be as detestable as any other.

– Get up! Stop acting! – I hear his slightly altered voice.

“Puff”

I fall sideways on the floor, Zaniel, as always, full of patience and kindness, turned my catre and knocked me down on the floor mercilessly, sometimes I still wonder if he still has differences with me, or if it’s just his personality anyway.

– Don’t be a soft angel, Anael! – he scolds me, that way it seems like he even cares about me.

– Ta! – I grumble as I get up from the floor and put my cot in its place.

I hate that things get out of place, not a cleaning addict, but it annoys me to be in a dirty and noisy place, exactly every part of the earth is like that, so, I hate it completely.

– If I were you – thank the Lord you’re not – I’d fly right away.

– And why are you in such a hurry? – I ask, but soon my mind turns to the baby who was born a few hours ago.

– Suriel is waiting for you in the date garden – Zaniel finishes speaking and then leaves the room.

I sit down on the cot again, lean my elbows on my knees and rest my chin between my palms.

Why?

Among so many angels, why me?

All I wanted was just to be a guardian angel of the warrior class.

Grrr! You know what? I’m not going to meet Suriel. I don’t want to be a protector of any human! Let someone who loves this corrupted farmland go!

With my mind simmering in a thousand thoughts, none pleasant, I get up from my cot and walk out of the dormitory, as I leave I stretch my wings and then take flight.

Feeling the pure and fresh wind on my face is almost like a therapy, my wings beat strong making me fly fast, after a few minutes I decide to pause on a rock in the middle of the Serafim waterfall, here is a calm place, there are many trees surrounding the waterfall and the wind is soft and pleasant to feel. I lie on my side on the rock and watch the beautiful leaves dancing with the wind, even the sound they make I like to hear, it gives me a sense of calm, a feeling of peace, a sense of …

– Why didn’t you answer the call Anael?

“Splait splash”

I was so distracted in my observation, that when I heard the commander’s voice, I got startled and ended up slipping off the rock and falling into the water. I’m not going to show myself shaken, so to show Suriel that I’m without any weight in my conscience started to float, I cross my arms behind my head and lightly tap my heels on the water to stay in motion.

– I asked you a question, Anael! – Suriel gets stressed and to show this he flaps his wings causing me to temporarily sink in the water, but soon I return to the surface, I take several deep breaths, this was unexpected so I could not prepare myself and ended up getting water in my mouth and nose.

– I don’t want to be a protective guardian angel! – ready, I’m direct and harsh in my words.

– Anael – he begins to speak calmer now – You know that we were born to fulfill our mission, that our life purpose is to fulfill the purposes of our Lord, you know that you have no choice – I rolled my eyes.

I know that! I know that my duty is only to obey you, but even so… I simply don’t want to, I don’t want to have to go back there, I don’t want to have to see more sadness, I don’t want to… To see fellow men killing fellow men only for pleasure, for ambition, for selfishness… I don’t want to go back there and have to witness this all day!

-I…

– Anael, my purposes are bigger than your wills, my son – says the gentleman that appeared from nowhere surprising both Suriel and me.

Without delay I leave the waterfall and land on the rock next to Suriel and together we bow to the lord.

– But sir I… – I want to say no, I want to go against an order… I know. But just imagining myself there again, seeing the blood spilled almost every hour, just the thought makes me shiver to the feathers of my wings.

– I know everything that goes on in your mind, Anael, your of your feelings towards my creation, I too have been quite sad, especially when I look at the other kingdoms and see that only mine has fallen into the shameful sin -it is remarkable the sadness in every word of yours- However, there are still some humans that can be saved…

– Why don’t you destroy them and create new humans without sin… – “back” Surriel gives a slap on the back of my head.

– Don’t be so selfish Anael! – scolds me looking serious in my direction.

I’m not being selfish! But what’s the point of maintaining a world that has fallen into complete disrepair? The green of that planet is almost inexistent, the waters are only polluted, there are regions that just by breathing the air I fall in bed because it is so polluted.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

– I know that there is no longer paradise there, that humans hurt my feelings every day, however, I love them too much, they are all my creatures! And you have the mission to protect Elisa! – I have never heard your voice sound as firm as it does now.

– Who? – now that I’ve got it good, besides taking care of a baby I’ll have to take care of this person too? I thought protectors only protect one! Why do I have to protect two!?

– Calm your thoughts son, Elisa is the name of the baby you will have to protect.

– Got it… – I speak in a very depressed tone of voice.

My mind wanders in the past, I remember the time when I was told that human beings had the privilege of choice… I live in a good place… I never missed being able to choose to deny or accept anything…

– Don’t think that I don’t love you, Anael, you are important to me too!

– I know that… – but the attitudes are contradictory… I sigh with this, I feel my eyes burn, tears threaten to come out, but I try my best to control myself.

– Let’s do this Anael, Zaniel was created to be an angel of the warriors protectors class, I didn’t change the essence of any of them, but I will change the classes and the two of them and then you will tell me if you want to continue in this class and leave it in the hands of other angels – I cheer up at the same time.

– Thank you sir!

I am so happy, I will not have to see the misery, I will only have to focus on the angels with black wings, you are no longer here, I look at Suriel and he looks at me sad.

I don’t say anything, I just stretch my wings and go back to the dorm, I look for Zaniel and tell him the decision of our lord, he told me that he had already been warned. He gave me the sword that used to be his and together we went to the portal, he already had the authorization.