A Girl in My Life

Who would have thought it, and there I was, begging you to let me at least pay a visit to “my” protégé.

– Anael, you’re not completely recovered yet – says the man leaning his chin on his hands. I take a deep breath.

I know I am not recovered yet, as soon as I arrived back in paradise, the lord himself came to my rescue, with his power he stopped the bleeding and with just a snap of his fingers we went to the recovery room. Suriel was already there, I saw the concern in her eyes.

The lord took me inside, the room was completely white, but the flames were blue, I remembered my birthplace, there the flames were red…. I worried… “Will I have to go through the wings ceremony again? Or worse… Will I go capenary of a wing?” – I’m almost out of my mind in thought.

– Calm down my son, neither and neither is the other – the lord speaks into my subconscious.

I feel my breathing and my heartbeat slowly return to normal.

– In this room your wounds will be healed, and it will take some time for your wings to grow back, this room will also help your body to forget the trauma experienced there on earth – he explained and laid me down on the warm floor.

My wrist and my thorax don’t even have scars anymore, the traumas that I suffered that day are not part of my body anymore, the only thing that is really leaving me disabled is my wing, it still needs some more days, it is very small, so I am with a normal wing and a miniature wing (it even reminds me of Elisa… Unfortunately she also has something bigger than the other)

“I wonder how she looks now?” – I wonder as I walk back and forth in the lord’s office, I know that a day here is equivalent to a year there…. I’ve been in recovery for seventeen days now…. That is to say… It’s been seventeen years since I last saw her…. “She must be so big” – she smiled and I try to imagine her in this new phase of her life.

I never thought, that I would want so much to go back to earth, I still don’t like it there, humans don’t see anything beyond their own navel. But Elisa’s father… He had a huge heart… I heard that he didn’t resist the accident, his soul was collected and taken to the universe 6, where the good creatures that died from all the universes go. There it’s like a paradise for humans who deserve it.

In these fifteen days that I spent locked in that room, I thought a lot, although not all of them really deserve there are still some that are worth protecting, and Elisa is worth, she is worth a lot, I want to protect her, I feel that for her I am capable of giving my life!

“I wonder what her life is like now without her father’s love? Has her mother fulfilled her late husband’s wish? Has she put the girl up for treatment?” – there are so many questions and so many worries that I cannot hide my features.

– Look Anael, I will allow you to see her today…. – I cannot hide the huge smile that forms on my face – But it will have to be fast, you cannot stop her recovery, do you understand?

– Yes sir, I can’t thank you enough for all that you do for me – I am really grateful, without you I probably would have been the first angel to commit suicide? After what my colleagues did, it was difficult for me to get out of the sadness, but I got out thanks to you.

– Here, here is your authorization – he hands me the paper and I take it – Be careful Anael, things may not be pleasant – and then you disappeared from your chair.

I wonder what he meant by that? I don’t care, the important thing is that I will see her and check the work of the substitute angel.

Unfortunately I can’t fly with my wings like that, and the way to the portal is so long…Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

– Do you want help, Anael? – I look in the direction of the voice and Suriel smiles at me.

– If you don’t mind carrying this wingless angel – I speak in an amused tone, I am happy, I will be able to see my girl, the girl who changed my point of view. The girl who came into my life.

– Finally you accepted your mission, I am very proud of you! – he says as he passes his two arms under mine and so begins to fly taking me along.

– I had to see with my own eyes that there really are still human beings worth protecting – I speak sincerely, but for me, the only human being worth protecting is Elisa, no one else.

We fly for about three minutes, Suriel pauses in front of the portal.

– Do you want me to go with you? – he asks, I know he is worried because of my current asal condition.

I think a little, really, I have never walked on earth, probably walking alone it will take me a long time to find her house.

– Yes I want to, coach – I give him a grateful look.

I hand the guardians the permission and together (me and Suriel). Sometimes I forget that Suriel has powers, I thought it would be the same when I came with Zaniel, but no, we already appear inside her room.

She is sleeping, I observe her room. Surely it’s the same as seventeen years ago, but the colours are worn out and the paint is coming loose from the walls. Her wardrobe, which used to be pretty, is now all pretty and decorated, but now there is only an old blue dresser.

I approach her bed and watch her sleep, her face is so serene, she is so different, her nose is thinner and her mouth is in the shape of a heart, her hair is tied, but by the size of the bun I imagine that they are huge. She breathes and I turn away.

I approach her dresser and see a notebook on top of it, my curiosity is enormous, I can’t resist and open it. The desire to cry is enormous… This notebook is a diary, it contains everything that other people have done to her during her life and how she feels, here she calls herself ugly, defective, a freak… Everything her father didn’t want her to feel she is feeling…. My chest tightens… I hold myself not to go after and not to hate each one of these people. I came out of my reveries hearing Elisa stretch out on the bed.

– Finally the fiona woke up – the woman progenitor of Elisa appears opening abruptly the door.

I watch Elisa sit up in bed and says nothing to defend herself, discreet tears fall from her eyes and my heart cries along with her.

– You are perfect! – I speak and without wanting to let my presence escape, she hears me and looks in my direction, I freeze, I feel my blood freeze. Suriel quickly says the enchanted words and we return to paradise.

– I am sorry… pa – I speak low… I broke a rule…

I observe Suriel sighing.

– Let us talk to the lord.

And so we go on to the palace.